Tuesday, October 28, 2008,10:31 pm
has one year really gone by so fast? it seems like just ytd. just ytd that we were mugging together for O levels. that we stayed back until 9.30pm to do revision. those were undoubtedly the best times of my secondary school life
seems like aeons ago when i told u tt i liked u as more than a friend. remembering that practically every day we would sms each other to ask if the other was free to go online and chat. and chat we did. average of 6 hours daily? also going out together, be it to lot 1, jurong point or orchard road.
and yet...
and yet...
it also feels like it never happened. just some weird dream; it could very well have been some other person's life, something i never lived, or maybe some long-forgotten memory. but maybe that's just denial
of course we had our differences. which couple doesn't? but i always hoped we would rise above that. hell, even our history teacher encouraged us. and practically everyone in sec 4, plus every teacher we knew, knew about it. unfortunately, dreams and reality rarely tally
i had thought being single once more would be fun. no restriction, no need to answer to anyone...but now, chatting with you, i realise what i've been missing for a good 9 months. trying to paper over the cracks, trying to pretend the wound isn't there. now i see that while time
has healed some of the hurt, there's still something missing. or maybe the wound hasn't healed; maybe i
don't want it to heal.
whatever it is, i'm glad we can still be friends. can still chat merrily on msn. hope you enjoy yourself in MI
