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Tuesday, November 28, 2006,1:27 pm

She was the one for me. There was never any doubt in my mind. We were meant to be together; it was written in the stars. We sat together, we played together, we talked on the phone for hours. I loved her as i had never loved anyone. And yet...she was so close, yet so far away. My heart ached when we were apart. Did hers too? Maybe it did. Maybe it didn't. I do not know. I probably never will. Maybe, in the end, we were just not fated to be with each other. And when we broke up...the memories will forever haunt my dreams. It may have been three years since our last meeting, but the scars are as clear as ever, the wounds still so fresh they could have been inflicted just yesterday. Time may have healed those wounds, but they will forever remain a part of me. Still I wonder, what would it be like if we were still together? I have tried, countless times, to put her out of my life. To close this chapter which has torn at my skin, bit into my flesh.

And yet...

And yet...

I do not want to. Maybe I am afraid to. All I know is that she was the first one...

Part of me screams: Shut the door. Accept that she is no longer in your life. Acceptance, after all, is the first step to recovery. Yet, another part of me refuses to let go, still clinging on desperately to those halcyon memories.

I tell myself to move on. She is in your past. Forget her, get on with life. One day, eventually, I will find the right one. So I patiently await that day, the day where another will be the true one for me, and drive away those demons.

Still I wait...

Sunday, November 26, 2006,10:06 pm

went to kinokuniya just now...bought Stephen King's new novel, Lisey's Story...heard its an interesting read, plus 20% storewide discount for kinokuniya, as well as times...so e original price of $43 became $34.40...bargain...also bought e Manchester United Annual 2007...$20 became $16...which meant i saved $13

now getting ready for Man utd vs Chelsea...ive got my potato chips ready lol

and CCAB tmr...woohoo

Tuesday, November 21, 2006,8:46 pm

seriously pissed now

i make plans to go out with both of you. i try...forget it. just get straight to the point. you dont include me in your conversations. its as though im invisible. a piece of wood. maybe ur friendly when its just one on one. maybe its just because you have no one else to talk to. but when theres two of you, boom! whos terence? huh? i dont know anyone called terence! fuck...i might as well stop hanging out with both of you. maybe it will be more peaceful without me. id be better off slacking at home, playing fifa until i rot. i go out with you, try to enjoy myself, and then...fuck. ask you where you want to go: DUNNO. ask you wat you want to eat: DUNNO. ask you this, ask you that, try to start conversation: DUNNO. two words: FUCK IT (apologies to DX). in fact, i think only one person out of you four really gives a damn about me...and tts the same person out of you four who even bothered to wish me happy birthday back in august...tts another thing: u can get each other presents, but wat about me?? call me your friend? BULLSHIT. im nothing to you. fuckasses...in fact, the only times today whereby i enjoyed myself were when i met hester (at e bus terminal) and brian (at plaza singapura). fuck

ok, enough about tt shit. maybe i'll cool off in a few days. maybe i wont. on to my favourite topic

to the slayers: CCAB! can we please go and play??? my legs are getting cramps from not playing football...a trip to queensway would be welcome too

at least theres 2 big games to look forward to this week: Celtic in approximately 6.5 hours and Chelsea on Sunday...np, shld be a clean sweep for Man Utd (take that Yinglun hahaha)

Monday, November 20, 2006,12:31 pm

watched the East Anglian derby ytd...Ipswich Town vs Norwich City

quite interesting...then again, most derbies are interesting (except london derbies)...Ipswich won 3-1...Norwich played like shit, even sengkang can play better...and Robert Earnshaw sucks

have to sleep early tmr...so can watch Celtic vs Man Utd...den Man Utd vs Chelsea at midnight on sunday...busy week ahead

Thursday, November 16, 2006,9:58 pm

was bored, so decided to try out some blogthings quizzes

You Are 50% Boyish and 50% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.
Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.
You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.
You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

If You Were Born in 2893...

Your Name Would Be: Reunn Baan

And You Would Be: The Future's Last Hope

If You Were Born in 2893

Your Attitude is Better than 60% of the Population

You have a good attitude. While a realist, you do see the positive side of most things. People love to be around you.

How's Your Attitude?

Your Deadly Sins

Sloth: 60%

Wrath: 40%

Envy: 0%

Gluttony: 0%

Greed: 0%

Lust: 0%

Pride: 0%

Chance You'll Go to Hell: 14%

You will die with your hand down your underwear, watching Star Trek.

How Sinful Are You?

Your Learning Style: Expressive and Tenacious

You love to learn about new cultures, ideas, and theories.

You Should Study:

Anthropology
Counseling
Education
Ethnic Studies
Foreign Languages and Literature
History
Literature
Music
Philosophy
Eastern Religion

What Should You Study?

Your Love Life Secrets Are

Looking back on your life, you will have a few true loves.

Although you may have been hurt before, you tend to bring very little scars into new relationships.

You expect a lot from your lover - you want the full package. You tend to be very picky.

In fights, you are able to walk away and calm down. You are able to weather the storm.

Getting over a break-up doesn't take long. Easy come, easy go.

Your Love Life Secrets, Revealed

You Are Cyclops

Dedicated and responsible, you will always remain loyal to your cause.
You are a commanding leader - after all, you can kill someone just by looking at them.

Power: force beams from your eyes

Which of the X-Men Are You?

You Are 38% Evil

A bit of evil lurks in your heart, but you hide it well.
In some ways, you are the most dangerous kind of evil.

How Evil Are You?

enjoy

Wednesday, November 15, 2006,5:00 pm

football makes the world go round

good day today...played football during break and after physics test

first: english...bye bye mr fausta tan, we'll miss you...or at least, i will...though i'll still see him in church

maths: bloody hell, only 17/20 for cumulative frequency...stupid careless mistakes...shld have gotten at least 19

4 periods of chinese: slacked around, blasted ipod...although it was interesting when teoh talked about flashers and paedophiles

and physics test was bloody hard, because i didnt understand any of the manometer shit...it'll be a miracle if i can score at least 10 marks

football after that: me, yuyong, kwongshuo, andy, samuel and jackie vs arthoven, albin, christopher & siewming...yea i noe its 6 vs 4, but their team all full of experience

so we were leading 7-4 (first to 10)...partly because at any time, either one of chris, albin or arthoven had to stay back to defend in case of a counterattack

Their scorers: Christopher (2), Albin (2)
Our scorers: Me(2), Yuyong (2), Andy(2), Arthoven og

cruising? not quite...we decided to give them kwongshuo. BIG mistake. with kwongshuo manning their defence, arthoven, albin n christopher were given license to roam upfront. and they promptly scored two goals each to make it 10-7. dammit kwongshuo lol

albin or j loh u better bring ball tmr...and screw, theres both physics and chemistry practicals tmr...if there was bio id have killed somebody

Tuesday, November 14, 2006,10:42 pm

another questionnaire...fortunately, im in a good mood this time

Never in my life had I : Drank more than 4 sips of wine
That 1 person can make me nuts, but can make me smile : erm...well...let me think...er...i guess...hmm hmm hmm...ah...er...let's see...
I like lines because they are : orderly (lame)
When i am nervous, i will : get sweaty palms like albin
The last time when i laughed was: when i was watching twisted transistor video
My curly is : nothing i have is curly
My foot are: my FOOT ARE??? atrocious grammar
Last christmas: ask me again in 41 days time
When i turn my head left to see? : door
When i turn my head right to see: my ipod
When i look down and see: the wooden table
The craziest event ever: Tottenham beating Chelsea
I have a hard time understanding: everything about f maths
One time at a family gathering : i rammed my cousin with a nike ball (accidently on purpose)
you know i like-like you: trade secret
If i win an award, the first person i can thank is : fu mu
Triangles are: three straight lines connected together around an enclosed area
My ideal breakfast is: Ham. Lots and lots of ham
If you make me happy: i will beat you up tomorrow, not today
I'll stop my wedding if: got football match, esp Man Utd vs Chelsea
The world could do without: ***********
I rather lick the belly of the cockroach: what is a cockroach???
Most recent thing you bought youself: new paper
Most recent thing someone else bought for you: parents: iPod
My least favourite part of the day : Early in the morning 6 o clock...
The last time when i was high : when i watched james blunt's "high" video
The person i last talked to : mother
Last night I : blasted my ipod
There's this girl i know who: is a bitch (in a nice way)
There is this guy i know: who is a bastard (in a fucked up way)
I tell you the person who will make you happy: my definition of "happy" greatly differs from yours
I am listening to : ipod
I last ate: Fluorine Iodine Sulphur Hydrogen
My bedsheets: lim beh bo bedsheet...lim beh yong blanket
I smell: the three little pigs
On my table i have: chem, maths, physics, gameboy advanced sp, handphone, ipod etc
My full name: Her net glee scene (rearrange the letters...what do you get?)

Those who want to do this questionnaire, go ahead. Those who dont, tts ur choice.

and im not studying for physics tmr. toodles

Monday, November 13, 2006,7:58 pm

match against khalifah?? what match???

anyway had school today...arrived at 8.10, only to find out patricia wasnt in school...so obt was relief teacher, did some crap essay on singapores ageing population

e maths cumulative frequency test was freaking easy

at break, played football with j lohs new teamgeist...nice to kick, tho it will probably burst like its predecessors as j loh got it for $15 in malaysia...managed to ole arif and scored a couple

and andy, stop kicking the ball at me, will you?

den physics...screw, we're still on manometers...the other class ald finished static electricity, wtf...maybe i'll ask yap for help during camp

and bio was talk cock session

some motherfucker in class pissing me off: ******...probably influenced by ********...bunch of fuckheads

physics test tmr...pressure (very pressurizing) prob going to fail all the manometer parts

Wednesday, November 08, 2006,5:43 pm

i hate e learning

went to woodlands civic centre library with coconut to do a maths matrices and chemistry sulphur...and when i reached there, i took out my chemistry textbook...and guess what? i left my chemistry worksheets at home. Brilliant. anyway matrices quite easy...and the only e learning thing i like is sec 4 e maths...cumulative frequency is freaking easy, so are medians, quartiles and percentiles

and bloody...i cant find quah's ammonia worksheets...to anyone from my class reading this, if u have them, do send me, much appreciated

now all thats left:

1) Physics: read Boyle's stupid law

2) Chemistry: Ammonia and Sulphur worksheets (easy peasy)

3) Biology: Stupid respiratory system

4) English: Research on a female Shakespearean character

5) Chinese: who cares

doing chem tonight, and physics is almost negligent, so there'll be just english and bio left for the rest of the week...unless those teachers upload more work (screw)

Thursday, November 02, 2006,4:46 pm

boring bloody questionnaire

theres a lot of attitude, mainly because im pissed right now. not happy? then fuck off

Favourite colour: Blue...duh
Favourite food: Lots...chicken rice...carrot cake...
Favourite movie: I Not Stupid (both...mainly because of lim bei and the insults thrown at the government)
Favourite sport: Football DUH
Favourite day of the week: Saturday
Favourite ice-cream: Chocolate and/or Mocha
Favourite TV shows: Phua Chu Kang, English Premier League
Current mood: Fucked up
Current taste: I have no tongue, so i cant taste
Current clothes: tuxedo
Current desktop: Manchester United DUH
Current toenail colour: I dont have toenails
Current time: 4.48 pm
Current annoyance: A lot...some fucker in my class...some ****
Current thoughts: May those mentioned above rot in fucking hell
First best friends: Hmmm...probably Shaun Lau
First crush: *****
First movie: The Lion King (and i still love it. anyone who disagrees, go fuck yourself)
First lie: Too many to remember
First music: Michael Learns To Rock (see the lion king for comments)
Last cigarette: Smoking is for losers
Last drink: Coca-Cola
Last car ride: Yesterday
Last crush: ahem
Last phone call: Mark (not for his umbrella, mind)
Last CD played: with my ipod, there's no need for cds
Have you ever dated one of your best friends: if she can be considered one of my best friends...then...
Have you ever broken the law: Jaywalking, spitting, cheating during exam, etc
Have you ever been arrested: yes and i was just released today so i could do this questionnaire
Have you ever skinny dipped: Do you what's the meaning of "private parts"???
Have you ever kissed someone you don't know? In my dreams
Have you ever loved and lost someone: Yeah...
Single, taken or crushing? currently the first and third, wishing for the second
Are you happy with your life now? Yup...its MY life, dammit, and none of you can do anything about it
When you meet the right person, will you fall in love with him/her fast? depends
Have you ever had your heart broken? Many many times...
Would you take someone back if she cheats on you: I wont bother...i'll just fucking murder her
Have you ever talked about marriage with another before? My parents DUH
Do you want children? Dont talk to me about sex right now
How many? Prob 2 or 3
Would you ever consider adoption? im not madonna
If someone likes you right now, what do you think is the best way to let you know his/her feelings? Tell it to my face...i'll appreciate the honesty
Do you enjoy getting into a relationship? Maybe not now...i'll think about that after army
What is the furtherest thing you and your ex did? go ask either S or V (her godbrothers)
Do you believe in love at the first sight? Not really
Do you believe you can change someone? Of course...im too influential
Do you give in easily when you are fighting? No duh
Do you have feelings for someone now? Even if I did, would she know?
Have you ever wished you could have someone but you messed it up? Yup...
Have you ever broken a heart? Obviously...or she wouldnt have...nvm
If one day your best friend falls in love with the person you're deeply in love with, what will you do? Tell him to fuck off my territory
Are you missing someone now? I guess...

Anyone of you pissed by all the vulgarities? Too bad. I already told you to fuck off if you werent happy

And how the fuck did Man Utd lose to Copenhagen? Fuck you Copenhagen...and fuck you Red Devils for taking the opposition lightly...you'd better beat Portsmouth on Saturday

Wednesday, November 01, 2006,2:54 pm

yay...first post of november

Lets
All
Make
Eggtarts

anyway, i think jeremy tan is a jinx to me or smt...whenever we play in school, we usually end up on opposing teams...and when both of us go for the ball or i go in for a tackle on him, i usually come off worst. like today, at e basketball court, he had kicked the ball ahead of him. so of course, i went in for a tackle...and then ended up flying, and managed to get cuts on my knee and elbow (both left), while he just stumbled for a few feet before regaining balance. in august or september, we were playing at e field and i tried to tackle him. ended up the ball rebounded back to him and he managed to keep himself upright and continued running, while i ended up spawled on the grass, my spectacles a couple of metres away. not tt im complaining about all these incidents and injuries (it is a man's game after all) but for once i would like to do him in. maybe i'll go push him next time. lol just joking

and physics practical is so much more fun when mdm li isnt scolding. like today, which was about finding the centre of gravity of irregular objects

and chelsea were very very lucky to score in the third minute of added time against barcelona. barca may be so-so on the road right now, but at nou camp they are a fortress. just one thing: they cant seem to survive without samuel eto'o, and ronaldinho is currently playing worse than my grandmother

after 25 long years, steven gerrard has finally scored. bow to him

and of course, man utd will hammer copenhagen (even tho giggs, saha and neville r unavailable) and may arsenal lose to cska moscow

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